After The Rage

Its been a little since everything happened I must admit I was happy to cuss his mother out I guess she thought she could scare me Or maybe in her anger she just was like alot of people where your just not thinking and you just act Really...

I understand Murder

In some situations I can see how people commit murder I think If I could of killed him and gotten away with it I would have Yesterday evening I decided to blog As I looked I noticed someone who was commenting She had kind words to say and...

What its like to be a Asexual

For me realizing that this is what I am and its more normal then known made me feel good I have no intrest in sex at all and its odd that Im seen as a freak because of that. I hate that it feels like the world and mostly women make me feel like...

Stupid Reality

So my weekend is over I slept most of it so I am feeling a little energy I cleaned the house and hopefully I can keep it clean cause I have overtime coming up But today as I slept I felt a little guilty Today was grams bday and I didnt...

Just Me

Even though Im the one who ended the relationship its still hard And with us having to live togheter it can make it difficutl at times Work can be a bit much since the girl who he told all my business to works there seeing her angers me She...

Day 3 into 4 of Break Up

So far its ok Our conversations are small and quick He hasnt asked about getting back toghether Today he bought me some food and paid me back for groceries before the break up Were being cordial and kind Today when he left he didnt say...

Day 1 and 2 The Break Up

Well I know breaking up was the right thing to do All the signs point to no This final act brought me to a place of no return Day 1 I was sad but more angry yet I also felt relief because I knew I no longer had to deal with our issues....his...

What Am I Waiting For

Through out the day I try to remember what it is I want to write So much and yet nothing really at the same time Today was definitly on the edge day for me I was so broken down that I cried at the drop of a hat I felt like if anyone even...